Battleship

Comedy show…. Will continue after

Weight

Last year I lost weight and made my goal weight of 105lbs. After my family saw me they told me I should eat more and not lose anymore weight. Also, I’m 5’2”.

My sister recently loses weight and weighs now 105lbs, they praise her for her weight lost and tell her how great she looks. Also, she’s 5’5”.

Yeah, pretty effed up to me.

Bad dream

Your dream starts out bad so before it can go any more wrong you try to stop it. As you drift deeper into sleep it only gets worst. You think you have conquered it by waking up, you get out of bed to shed light on the dark room only the light is not working. You go into the hallway to turn on the light, it’s not working too!

Wait, I’m still in this bad dream. How do I wake myself now?!

I layed back in bed and yell at myself to wake up! I yelled three times until finally I woke up.

:’(
worst experience ever

disconnected

my sister posted photos of her visit back home.

my thoughts about it:

confusion, hurt, regret, anger, sadness, jealousy and disconnection

i haven’t seen or talked to my family now in about 7 months. usually it’s a call i answer or text i receive but i’ve been completely content with the lack of communication and updates from them for 7 months straight. i feel like my family for so long has only kept me and still keeps me from doing what i can do. 

your family, or at least for some, their family is their everything - best friends, mentors, guardians, love, yada yada yada. can i say i never felt that way with them. i love them, i think only because i should love them. i know i respectthem more now than i have in the past but i still have no true interest in trying to connect with them. i have more fun and honest conversations with friends or with even the guy i knew for only one month. 

but when my sister posts these pictures of the family back home i can’t help but feel betrayed. that i know for myself to there at that time, there wouldn’t be that same connection that they all share with each other. that i would still be the one to be left out. which is why i feel none of my efforts to answer calls or talk to them is important.

and yet from all my sadness and jealously of their relationship with each other i still miss most my dad. who could quite possibly be the one responsible for all the disconnection in the first place. 

confused.

Laugh

If I have a kid I hope it laughs as much as I do.

Hahahha!!! I just made my self laugh when I thought this. :D

I like that at the times he or I need a smile, we can make that happen for each other; without even realizing it was needed :)